Today I stayed up untill 10pm working! I ate a two light meals, went for two walks in the sun with Ben (my dog we're looking after), had a session with a client, talked to some prospects and suddenly it's 10pm!
I'm not an advocate of staying up late working but I am an advocate of having something worth staying up late and working for.
3 years ago when I was still at uni, I had a shit ton of work to get through and zero motivation to get through it.
So a Thursday might have looked something like; get up anxious about the mountain of work I need to do, go to my morning lecture, come home have lunch, make a cup of tea, do 20mins of coursework, decide I need to have another cuppa to focus, do 15 mins of work, spend 20 mins of Facebook, go get a snack, come back and go on Facebook, watch all my you tube videos again, decide it's time for a break, feel guilty that I haven't done any work, do 30 mins of work, then decide to go to the beach for an evening walk. Start work again at 10pm, work for 1-2h then go to bed exhausted, drained, feeling unproductive, unsocial and anxious about repeating it again the next day.
I thought it was about my ability to focus. I thought it was that I wasn't hard working enough. Not ambitious enough. And even when I did give it my all, I still didn't get the best marks. I thought I just wasn't good enough!
But I now know, it wasn't because of any of those things. I wasn't doing what I loved doing! My heart wasn't in it. My soul wasn't in it. So there was no source of natural energy, motivation or drive.
In my work now, I know I'm making a difference. In the hard day's I have the focus and motivation to solve problems and keep going. In the good days I celebrate like I've never done before. I have the preserverence of a river, will power of a waterfall and the adaptability of water in different containers.
It all started with listening to my intuition. Then taking action which felt scary and uncertain. Getting myself amazing mentors. Getting clear on my dreams, core values and unique gifts. Doing the inner work to breakthrough my mental and emotional blockages. Dedicating myself to physical, mental and emotional health and giving permission to myself to thrive.
A transformation, without which I would still have thought I just wasn't good enough.
Do you feel the pull to have unlimited natural energy, focus and drive in your life and create meaningful impact?
Alara is a WHY discovery coach, NLP practitioner, a Rite of Passage Facilitator and a Yoga/Meditation teacher. She specialises in helping business owners find and articulate their vision.